Saturday, June 17, 2006
went to watch soccer as usual as i did for the pass few nights... all along i had thing gal in mind i think... she was there last night togteher watchin wif us...
we betted quite big i think then we won and all of us went a little crazy... as we realli did win alot, we chose to down to DXO as it was ladies so they all didnt realli need to pay a single cent...
when we reached, it was so boring, we were the onli crowd there...apart frm tt, it was HOUSE music...how am i gonna dance there? how r they gonna survive tt way.. but wat the hell, they sponsored by NTUC mah... of cuz can survive lah... lol...
we discussed on whether shld we head over to Devils' Bar as they closes at 6am n hav R&B for mi to enjoy... as i always say.. i rather pay more to enjoy gd music...
wel... as we were all leaving DXO, gt this guy whu is a fren of my fren met us too... can see frm his eyes tt he went drinkin juz now b4 meetin us...
2 of my gal frens were playin as they were piggy-backin noe another... they are close frens for many yrs liao... when 1 of them suddenly fell, but it was a slight one... the guy went to help her up(he like tt gal whu fell) and gave her fren a veri fierce stare as if he wanna kill tt gal... she shouted back at him...
i flared up at him too when he said tt "if can whack u up i whack liao" to the gal... i mean how can you say tt to a gal? she deserve sum respect dude as they were playin onli... and if u realli like a gal and care for her, i think the least u can do is to respect her frens too...
we shouted at one another, as frens tried to persuade us to stop advancing on one another, frm the enttance all they way to the back streets alley... i wasnt lookin for a fight.. i was juz wantin to make sure tt my frens hav the respect they deserve... tt guy when had a 1-2-1 tok wif mi(wif a presence of a police officer) still dare to use his gang to tok 2 mi... i told him, such things no need use gang... tok like man... i dunno how old is he but think its kinda childish...
i headed over to Devils' anyway... there i had fun dancing, drinkin, etc... the feeling there was so so different frm DXO... dance halfway, i sprained my ankle... but tt didnt stop mi frm dancing thru the night (wat can stop mi baby!!??)...
when the party ended, its was so tiring n my ankle still hurts so badly, i now cld barely walk properly i think.. hehe...
tonight gonna watch soccer again, hopefully she wil b there as usual...
posted at Saturday, June 17, 2006... bye...
Sunday, May 07, 2006
went to meet Amelia ytd night to go over to her cell grp's hse... tried to keep my mind off her but then impossible... hear the tok or semon done by Bro. Collin(tts wat they cal him), didnt realli like it but felt there were veri interesting point of view in between... i felt like lots of this theories abt God were so different... or mayb juz becuz the values tt i was taught b4 werent juz like his teachings... wel.. lots of qns, loopholes, etc... but then nv voice out as, whu i am to voice out my opinion? i nt even a Christian... juz a person whu believes tt God exists and that had sum knowledge abt Him tts all...
went to Angel's hse aft tt to pass her her stuffs.. so glad to b able to finally see her again... lol... missed her so much over the past few days... had a fun n great time wif her though as we juz played n had fun tryin to help her wif her proj...
she was kinda pissed off by sum1 whu juz wasnt sensitive enough to her feelings... Control freak wld b wat i wld cal him... go where, wif whu, when go home, etc... all muz report to him... wat a creep!!! wif Love, cums freedom n the ability to release the person so as the person u luv can find her happiness in you and fly rite back to your arms... this was 1 thing i learnt frm when wif Mich n now i can see how impt tt means to any1 in a relationship...
left her hse at ard 330am... walked all the way home.. lol... took mi onli 1 1/2 hr... nt tt long actually... haha... great workout for mi... reached home, bathe then watch 1/2 an hr of Golf then slp...
posted at Sunday, May 07, 2006... bye...
Friday, May 05, 2006
last night stay at Andy's place... his place same structure as mine... hehe... but his place looks so much neater and tidier than mine... he hav like a e. grand piano, guitar at home lor... like a jamming studio like tt... juz tt short of a set of drums... haha... he stay quite near mi oso... then mayb next time can like go his place n learn music together... cuz he say need guidance n i oso need sum pointers frm him... hehe... he can sing veri wel oso... haha...
wat can i do? kana driven out of the hse by them... nuthin much more i can say rite? they didnt even gv mi a cal or a msg... nvm then... heard frm my sister tt they changin the lock frm home... beta move out all my stuff b4 they do so... otherwise i wld realli b stranded by then...
any1 here gt any bright ideas on wat i can do next? need a permanent place to stay(tts my 1st plan in mind)... see whether if their son died b4 their veri eyes, wld they even regret doin wat they did?
MISSIN YOU.. JUZ YOU
posted at Friday, May 05, 2006... bye...
Thursday, May 04, 2006
had a big time argument n conflict wif my parents ytd... i was in the wrong i think but they didnt seem to understand the plight and situation tt mi and my sis is undergoing... cant say much abt wat the topic is here... incovenient... juz can say its all abt $$ n $$ n $$...
i left my hse at ard 7 plus wanting to go for dinner alone... but then due to the over boredom, i tried looking for a fren nearby to accompany mi... felt so hurt n disappointed in my family... but in the end.. to no avail...
therefore went down to town, as i wil b gg Zouk to club ltr... didnt feel like gg actually but then gg cuz its Shiyin's bdae celebration mah... hehe...in the end... ended up having my own dinner at TAKA...
the whole time ever since i left my house, parents have been calling mi.. but i juz refused to answer... i dun care abt anythin... they juz dun care n bother to even understand wat feelings i had...
dad juz msged mi n said tt i am in deep shit n trouble... wil tt realli scare mi? i dunno... juz felt tt being threatened by own family members is so hurtful n it juz simply sucks... my sis smsed mi oso... sayin tt she didnt like the way they treated us both, but cant b help... a mere 13 yr old gal sayin such things, i was impressed and shocked... she oso said tt mum confiscated the lappy... wel.. there is such thing called LAN shop in this world... pay pay lor... i can afford anyway...
clubbed all the way til Zouk closed... didnt realli enjoyed myself though i did realli try... Shimin did try make mi feel comfortable n beta..(thks dearest fren)...
went for supper aft tt all the way til abt 5.30am i think.. went home in the cab same as Andy(a guy wif abt 75% resembrance with Edison Chen, trust mi it is*winks*)
i reached my hse downstair abt 545 am... didnt go home... went to a nearby block to slp til morning 8.25am as i noe my parents wil be out by then... went home n slp til abt 1245pm then wake up for work... muz go out b4 they return...
tonight wil b workin til abt 1030pm... wun b gg home aft tt i think... shld b stayin out til veri veri late til next morning then go back... i juz hate them now... i dunno y... wat can i do to release this hurt n hatred? i dunno...
received a cal juz now frm a "customer" tt was looking for mi... the moment i answered the phone, the person hung up on mi b4 i cld say anythin... muz b my mum... it nt juz a gut feelings.. i juz noe it...
the onli prob now is how long is this whole issue gg to last... but til it is solved, i wil nv nv wan to see their face again... juz tt i need a place to stay... shld i juz go Angel's hse? her sis dun like it... i dunno lah... any1 can take in 1 refugee of a war? tel mi k?
SO MUCH TROUBLE N SADDNESS AND THE ONLI 1 I WISH TO SEE IS YOU MY DEAREST ANGEL!!! HOPE YOU WILL CAL MI WHEN U READ THIS... MY HEART POUNDS JUZ FOR YOU NOW...
posted at Thursday, May 04, 2006... bye...
Monday, May 01, 2006
been a few days since i last saw her... wil confirm b seeing her tmr... hehe... sending her to sch mah.. haha...
so much trouble up in my mind... but i cant seem to face it or solve it... i hav no exit left... frens ard mi seems so untrustworthy... i cant seem to bring myself to trust ani1 anymore... issit the betrayal is too strong for mi to handle? i dunno...
i realli do mis her alot... her smile, her laughter, her voice, her eyes, nose and cheeks... her charisma, character, angry face n happy face... haha... nuthin much i wish 4.. juz to see her face...
to mi, being wif her doesnt matter tt much as being there for her always is my promise to her... my feelings for her are raging like stormy sea waves, gets stronger and stronger each wave... its deeper than the deepest ocean n definitely higher than the heavens...
YOU ARE ALWAYS HERE IN MY HEART, HOPEFULLY YOU WILL LET MI ALWAYS STAY WITH YOURS!!!
posted at Monday, May 01, 2006... bye...
Saturday, April 29, 2006
still rmb tt time at Zouk entrance... tt was where i 1st told her tt i liked her... it wasnt done in a proper manner... i juz merely whispered to her as there were so mani ppl ard... i didnt dare do so at 1st but then tt Jo "gave" mi courage... lolx...
all i told her was tt i liked her.. then she like shunnin away frm mi... nt becuz i startled her, but becuz it wasnt the rite timing... as she juz nice at the moment was feeling hurt due to sum other probs...
but wat did i wanna say to her? other than myself, mayb no1 else wld noe...
i might nt b as handsome as J.
i might nt b able to drive as wel as G.
but my Love for you
cant b matched wif juz mere words n looks
My heart tts beats for you has you as its Bass Speakers
Strong when its nearer, n fades when you r far
And with every sound tt comes out of it
wld make my heart beat accordingly
nt sure y am i so crazi, but I'm juz sure of 1 thing
the greatest thing tt ever happened was knowing you
i hav always dreamt of being with you
and every night i wld pray tt my dream wld come true one day
my angel... waiting for you to fly into my life 1 day, into my heart, into my soul...
i wil wait 4 u 4eva if i hav to... stayin by ur side, lookin aft u, waitin on you all my life
IF BEING LOVE IS FORTUNATE, MY ANGEL,YOU WOULD B THE MOST FORTUNATE PERSON IN THIS WORLD FOR MY LOVE FOR YOU IS INFINITE...
PATIENTLY HERE WAITING FOR YOU, JUS FOR YOU
posted at Saturday, April 29, 2006... bye...
(0) commentsFriday, April 28, 2006
hi ppl... so long nv blog liao(1 mth i think)... missed mi? hehe... wel... here to tel u wat went on all this tyme when i was away frm here...
Love
there is this gal, "Angel", noe her thru my work place at Golden Mile Complex... she is kinda an interesting gal n her attracted mi alot... how n why u might ask... wel... gals wif confidence, attitude and have their own characters are best magnets for mi... though she might b short-tempered but tts where it brings out her frank n truthful side of her... she is nv afraid in expressing herself which i always find it as a gd point...
she n i had a interesting 1st time meeting...
i took her file and changed it to mine n was ticked off by her(this is the summary of it)... but b4 tt, when i 1st saw her pic in Five Star in this particular MSN acc, she gave mi a veri mysterious feeling when i saw the pic, it was a babe... trust mi when i say- BABE... i wanted to noe this gal so i asked whu this is but like cant seem to find her... wel... i found her by chance or can u say by fate? hehe...
stayed over her place this few days actually(nt alone, wif a grp)... had lotsa fun except for sum parts in between(wil explain ltr)... her family are all veri interesting people, makin up of like 2 cute sisters n her parents whu r 4eva humorous and easy-to-get-along... hehe... nice family wif strong warmth within...
we go clubbin together quite often nowadays(Zouk, Phuture, Desire n 80 Bar)along wif 2 other person(her bestie, Joanna n GW)... i juz love her company n chatin wif her though there is sumthin else which i dun like(explain ltr)... i juz feel so so so so comfortabe wif her ard my side... when i see her, the sensational feelings i hav inside is like xploding n wanting to burst out strong... every sms or calls tt cums in, i wld juz wished its her... no matter wat she wants mi to do, i wld... but wld it go unappreciated? i dunno n dun wish to ask so much or noe so much... the simplest way to do things wld always b one of the best way...
went drinkin wif her n a couple of our frens 2 days ago... she gt drunk, this guy(gw) took care of her all the way... y wasnt it mi u might ask, cuz it was a respect n i wasnt feeling in the best mood to take care of any1 as i juz quarrelled wif my mum tt veri day n nt feeling gd at all... though my heart hurts as i see her falls into sum1 else's arms n her suffering face tt was so pale, there is nuthin i cld do...
this guy gw is sum1 tt likes her too(in case u all dunno), we r frens, or wld i say, acting to b frens? though she might nt see it but its kinda obvious... the 2 of us wld always b wif her no matter where she goes, we r like gd pals then, but then, its all an act... cuz aft she is nt ard, he wld juz ignore n gv mi sum attitude...WATEVA, kinda childish dun u think? hehe
this guy is juz nuthin but a boost... he is oso veri insensitive n not understanding enough(i'm nt sayin these cuz i'm jealous or wat, i dun mind competition but it gets bad when u can see all he say n does r juz lies)... he says things tt mostly untrue n does things tt is nt wat he said...he is oso an over defensive person...meaning BUAY SIA SU(cannot lose out)... let mi name a few incident...
1. aft clubbing at zouk, sum1 said he wanna go home as he is veri veri tired, in the end, he boarded the cab wif us n then went bfast wif us all the wat til morning, then when we send angel home, he alighted together wif her, send her to sch or sumthin... aft clubbing always ask him where he goin, he wld say Tiong as his relative stays there, he stays in Woodlands, but in the end he wil alwyas tag along wif us or rather, her... if u wanna tag along wif her juz say so, no need like act til so great tt u hav a relative stayin at Tiong... cuz he always say " i hav a relative staying at Tiong but then i cant go so early." my goodness, do u even believe in such crap?
2. 2 nights ago, he send her back as she was drunk rite? wel, he bumped into the sister, n she asked her whether he stayin over, he said no(a firm no was given to her sister as tt was wat i heard), in the end, he left onli the day aft together as i send her to sch... i didnt stay over as i didnt hav a chance to send her back, i went home wif Joanna, slept n met up wif them at her place...
3. said he wanna see doc to take MC as think he cant bear to leave her side... said tt he wanna go Polyclinic to see... then aft tt, he say he dunno where, he repeated tt like so mani times, as if wan as accompany him go see... Angel hav classes 1 lor, nt like him leh... he nv understand... but then, in the end, we told him go Outram SGH... in the midst of walkin to the MRT, keep sayin tt he wanna see Private, then aft tt think think, he wld go to SGH... y? isnt it obvious, cheaper mah... if u no cash say lah, can lend u 1st no need like try to b strong...
4. claims tt there is an online transactions of funds to him frm his fren(his fren owes him $$ was wat he said)... then check frm an ATM, he say can see tt the funds r dangling there, juz tt its nt transferred over!!!( YOU BELIEVE??) it was like on Mon he said tt, today already Fri, still nt over? it onli takes 3 working days max... say til like i nv work in banks b4 or nv inter-bank trsf funds b4... told him 3 days can go thru n guess wat he said? "DBS Bank takes longer time.... can u even believe this guy? haha...
5. whenever i get close wif her wif him ard, he wld like msg her wif his phone to "disturb" us... like wth lor... hav capabilities no need like this rite? hehe... anyway, he wld msg things like, "can u make things clear to mi, as marcus seems so into u"... wtf lor... y pressure her like tt? like she owes u an answer...she wld make a choice when the times cum n when she needs to... there is no need to pressure her like tt lor... as he dunno wat she is thinkin now n oso dun even bother askin her, he juz thinks tt wat he doin now is gonna get her as his gf... there is sum1 in her mind n heart tt she cant release juz yet and her studies r giving her enough pressure( she is gonna study damn hard for scholarship due to difficulties)... give her the space man... y tie her up so tightly? she nt even yours yet, cant realli dare to imagine next time if they realli r together...
6. he plans things for her like so nice(i beg to differ though) but then when it cums to activities tt involves ppl more than juz them, he wil b damn sloppy, as in anyhow oso can lor... i wun say wat it is as it meant to b a surprise...
7. he gets so touchy wif her at times even her bestie cant stand it... MAN GET THIS STRAIGHT IN UR THICK SKULL, A GAL ALLOWS U TO TOUCH HER DOESNT MEAN SHE DUN DESERVE THE RESPECT FRM YOU PHYSICALLY!!!
8. juz last night, when we both stayed over her place... she was asleep, then we played cards wif her dad til 3am plus this morning... then she woke up to do her hmwrk... her dad went to slp n we went to her room, he he laid on her bed n then start sayin childish stuffs... as he went to SGH, they referred him to the Specialist as he was found wif excessive white blood cells... then he said things like, he is dyin, he wished to die... things like he scared diagnosed wif sum terminal dieseases n say things like wld raher die than to noe wat incurable sickness he has... then i say if u dun wish to noe then dun go 4 checkup but if u wish to noe, then go 4 it at least when u die, u noe the reason which makes ur pain much beta... then he like wanna noe n dun wanna noe at the same time... (is tt even possible??) he was like having so much fun playin cards then the moment he went into her room, he say such things tt is totally of 2 extreme moods... he kept repeating his "thoughts" for like 30mins straight n no matter how much advise we tried to give, he wil tend to look on the negative side... attention seeker or sympathy gainers? u decide... i cldnt take it any longer n juz pass a remark unto him as an sympathy gainer, he was like super defensive sayin"marucs dun pisse mi off" like wtf lor... haha...
anyway... tts kinda sums up all abt him...
back to her n i... i hav sumthin in stored of her upcumin bdae on the 22nd... but most prob i onli celebrate another day as my mum's bdae is on the 21st... n 22nd is a mon( hav to work)... how i wished i cld b there... hehe... i get to send her to sch every morning as i adjusted my schedule starting time in accordance to her sch starting time... hehe... i dunno y i did it... i juz did, mayb as fate plays a part, it gonna show mi tt a real GEM takes hard work n sacrifice to attain...
I WILL ALWAYS B RITE HERE WAITING FOR YOU!!!
JUST KNOW THAT I WILL ALWAYS B THERE FOR YOU NO MATTER HOW TOUGH OR ROUGH THE ROAD IN FRONT OF US CAN GET, TRUST MI, JUST TAKE THE CHANCE AND WE CAN GO THROUGH IT ALL TOGETHER
posted at Friday, April 28, 2006... bye...
Marcus Yeo
19/11/1985
Age : 20
Area : Hougang/Paya Lebar
Family
My SeaGull
Friends
Drinking
Clubbing
Playing Piano
Playing Guitar
Liars
Backstabbers
People whu Take Others for Granted
TwO TiMeRs